Autobiography of Junu

The purpose of the autobiography: Introduce myself about my dynamic or distinctive life stories to others, so that they understand my characteristics and behavior very well. After reading it, the reader will feel attractiveness of me. I will write it down in a sequence of the time. Every story contains why I get the good point. There are 5 good points of me: 1. Record every daily lesson in a blog for others 2. Focus on daily life 3. Actively Approaching Attitude 4. Well-Expressing Ability 5. Positive and Smile well

 

             I believe “LOVE” is the most important in my life. I think life is easy. It is divided into three parts. 1. Believing Santa Claus is real (Young age) 2. Knowing there is no Santa Clause (Adolescent) 3. Becoming a Santa Claus (Having a family and baby). Now, I am in a second stage and trying to get in third stage.

             When I was in the first stage, I was so competitive. Because I have two older sisters, I had to compete everything with my sisters from delicious foods to parent’s love. In Korea, there was still a culture that old people prefer males to females. Because my grandmother thinks that sons do celemonies for ancestors. Thus, I was born in 1997 after my second sister was born in 1993. For this culture, I was grown up with fruitful love of grandmother and parents, not my sisters. There are some funny comments in Korea. Because most people thinks that there is pre-life and post-life, “Parents and Son, Daughter relationship was lender and borrower relationship in pre-life”, and “Brother and Sister relationship was competitive relationship in pre-life.”

             I was grown up with a fruitful support of parents. I took many classes after school, for example, Chinese character, calligraphy, Taekwon-do(Korean traditional martial art), art, English, Chinese, etc. It was interesting when I learned these things. I think I has been economical since when I was young. I don’t want to waste my parents’ money for tuition, so that I studied hard and got a mind that everything will be helpful in the future. Because of this mindset, I tried hard everything. It is very different with the American culture, which I think they do only what they love. In the past, I wanted to find out what I love to do, but I couldn’t find it out. This hope for finding my dream hurts me, vice versa. After then, I decided to think that it is much better to become a generalist than a specialist, because the world is changing very fast.

            I studied very hard and I even dated hard with my girlfriend. I tried to do everything very hard. However, the reason why I broke up with my first-lover is I didn’t love myself. After I enter the Foreign Language High School, I compared with my friends and I found out that I am not that good person. It was so stressed to me, and I always said my worries to my ex-girlfriend. What I learned from it is that the person who love himself or herself can love other person and be loved by others. After this experience, I do not focus on the Korean S.A.T., I focused on the way how I live. What I find out was the Buddhism. It made me feel better and not to be obsessed to the trivial things, like entering the university or getting money.

             I am satisfied with my high school life, but my S.A.T score was terrible. However, I thought that I don’t need to go university like others, so that I started to study the test to become a public official. It is very different route in Korea, because the percentage of entering the university or college is almost 90%. This choice was great in my life. Because I learned that there are always some routes I can live with and life doesn’t go as my wish. But, Fortunately I was passed the university test after 1 month later S.A.T. I decide myself that I will not come back this public official academy anymore.

             After I enter the university, my campus life was unlike other students. Most of my friends were confused of their life. They were always drunk and forgot worries. Their only one objective was to get in the good university. They don’t know what to do. On the other hand, I was different. It is same that I don’t have a specific dream, too. But I studied business administration very hard, because it was very interesting compared to the public official test. In the result of my efforts, I got a great GPA and it continued.

             The university student life is very complex. There are various works, for example, school assignments, out of campus life, school club activities, love, etc. I was so depressed because it was so messy. I am very organized person. It is demonstrated as the MBTI test that I am a Blue and Gold person. I do record everything and give some tips of my life in blog. The link is https://blog.naver.com/wnsdn6007 which is written in Korean. I started to write down the blog because I want to leave my everything in the world and be helpful to others. Because that is my life goal: helpful to other. I follow my name. In Korean, my name is Park Junu and in Chinese character 朴埈佑. The last letter of ‘u(佑)’ means ‘helping other’. The letter of ‘Jun(埈)’ means the people who is in difficulty. For these reason, I want to be helpful to others. After I come to the United States, I started to write down another blog which is written in English. https://happyjunu.tistory.com/ it is not continued every day. But I will upload it according to my daily records.

             There is another reason why I want to be helpful to others. I went to the India in order to meet and listen “Dalai Lama”. He is very famous in Buddhism and Tibet. He taught me that “無常” which means that the life is not continuous, it is limited. This lesson makes me that not to obsessed to mine. I was born with nothing and I will be dead with nothing. So, I tried to share my experiences and knowledges from my life and university life to others. This autobiography also will be posted on my blog.